This is probably gonna be my last post. Ever. I think it's better if no one sees inside my mind, then again if anyone actually did they would go blind...
I can't believe how much things have changed in me, in them, in everything.
"It's all messed up, but we're alive. It's all messed up but we'll, but we'll survive"
Last few days, people are going to think I'm crazy for this, my view of religion has changed. I can't but help but shake what I read in a quantum physics book: "Motion is an illusion." That at a certain time, everything is still because time and motion are related. So what if life is an illusion? What if what we think is happening really isn't? I may sound crazy, but that actually works when you think about it.
No, I do not believe in evolution, aliens, or that. I just don't understand it all too well. Mysteries will be solved one day I suppose.
I was in Toronto the other day, I was at the docks. Someone walked by wearing her perfume.. that was like a kick to the crotch considering she now lives in Toronto. I think the reason I can't believe it all happened is that she said how much she cared about me, how much I meant to her.. and I haven't said a word to her in more than a month. She didn't answers inboxes, texts, or even msn. So I gave up. Guess it's true what she said, "I don't talk to my exes.. but there are a few exceptions." I wasn't one of those even though officially we weren't together.
On the plus side I'm sorta talking to those people again. I'm going to have to see where that leads me. I'm not hiding this anymore, I'm just gonna say it... if arguing starts up again I don't think I can take it too much. My stress levels are already through the roof. I'm really looking forward to that 2 month vacation.
I wrote a few songs this month, eventually the music will follow with them... yet I don't really see the point since I can't play in front of people; Damn you nerves.
Farewell blog.
Sunday, September 19th, 6:56 PM 2010
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